Supposed Adventure Date: November 10, 2015
(this is a temporary FR, an FR for a failed appointment)...
NOTE: i wrote this FR before my actual walk took place...
Current Rating for Miss Co:
- The Communication - 8/10, she's a busy lady, but she can be very prompt in responding to booking inquiries & answering calls once you're a bit familiar with her schedule..
- Voice - 10/10, she has a very womanly voice over the phone.. at masarap siyang kausap, very accommodating..
Details:
first of, i would like to explain why i badly want to meet Miss Co..
i'm not sure kung mababasa pa ba niya 'to..
pero gusto ko lang malaman niya kung bakit mabigat ang loob ko dahil sa nangyari sa scheduled date namin...
i really want to see her because she's my #2 sa wishlist ko ng Retired [Name of Group]..
it was early 2015 nang ma-diskubre ko yung tungkol sa kanya, habang nagre-research ako ng more information & legitimate proof about their group (noong bago pa ako nag-walk)..
she had this photo, wherein naka-school uniform siya (the [Name of Group]'s former red uniform)..
in that picture, her body was facing the wall, she's looking towards the camera (but her top face was blurred, particularly her eyes), only a part of her nose & her very lovely smile was revealed, her white long-sleeved school blouse was worn 3/4 style, it also seemed that it was pinned at the back to give emphasis to her curves, and her short red skirt wasn't enough to cover her very tempting big & round ass..
yung particular picture na yun yung main reason why i got so intrigued with Miss Co..
tapos nadagdagan pa yung curiosity ko na yun dahil sa mga comments about her inside [Forum], sa Missing PSP thread and also her own Ex-[Name of Group] Co thread..
a lot of GMs were looking for her, so it gave me the idea na baka ganun talaga siya ka-popular for clients to look for her kahit na wala na siya..
but during that time, wala naman akong magagawa kasi nga Retired [Name of Group] na siya...
and then one day, the good news came..
halos kababalik ko lang noon mula sa last walk ko last August..
at sinabi nga nung pilot ng [Name of Group] dito sa [Forum] na babalik nga daw si Miss Co..
kaya ayun, nagkaroon ako ng pag-asa na makita yung [Name of Group] na minsan kong pinangarap na ma-meet at makasalamuha..
and so nagsimula akong planuhin at paghandaan ang Most Beautiful Walk ko sana with Miss C & H's official combo, plus a solo walk with Miss Co...
.
she was part of my Retired [Name of Group] Wishlist..
kaya naging top priority ko na ma-meet siya..
kasi ayokong maulit yung time na aabutan na naman ako ng retirement niya...
you see..
i am not the kind of guy na nagwo-walk lang dahil may personal na pangangailangan ako..
kasi kung yun lang talaga yung dahilan ko, eh pwede ko namang piliin na lang yung mga Indies or even Elites/VIPs na mas mabababa pa yung rate kumpara sa ibang [Name of Group]..
but as of now i'm still quite idealistic..
i'm a fan of the [Name of Group] simula noong unti-unti ko nang makilala yung ibang members nila..
at naisip ko na gusto kong mag-stick na lang with them gaya nung isang sikat na [Name of Group] patron (sir, you know who you are
)..i want to meet them, and not just anyone else..
kaya naman masyadong goal-oriented yung mga pina-plano kong walk, and one of the goals nga is to meet those [Name of Group] na hindi ko pa nakikilala sa personal...
pagdating sa booking ko para kay Miss Co, eh talagang nahirapan ako..
it was my fault..
simula pa lang kasi noong October eh ready na naman akong magpa-schedule sana..
pero dahil sa pangarap ko na makita sina Miss C, H & Co in a set of walk, eh nag-decide ako na hintayin si Miss H (na currently on leave pa rin) for more than a month..
kasalanan ko yun, dahil desisyon ko na maghintay - sayang nga lang at nauwi yun sa wala..
tapos something came up, and i needed to focus on something else - something na supposedly eh productive..
kaya biglang na-pressure ako to form a new walk set before taking a long & indefinite break...
it was October 24 when i started to try to book Miss Co & my other [Name of Group] prospects..
but unfortunately, hindi ako nabigyan ni Miss Co ng schedule kasi inabot naman ako ng red flag week niya..
tapos after that, eh dadaan pa yung Undas, kaya tumagal muli yung naging paghihintay ko...
i tried booking my prospect [Name of Group] for 1 isolated date & 6 consecutive days (that's from November 2 to 7)..
i was able to fix my schedule with Miss C by November 4..
that with Miss Co by November 5..
& that with Miss Ab by November 7...
after kong ma-finalize yung schedule naming 3 nina Miss C, Co & Ab, i wasn't expecting any message from any of them before November 10..
but that 7:31 PM of November 8 came (YES, it was cancelled naman in advance at hindi sa mismong araw)..
noong nakita ko pa lang na name ni Miss Co yung nag-text eh kinabahan na ako..
tapos binasa ko nga yung message, & it broke my heart - she's cancelling our meeting..
valid naman yung reason niya eh, and naiintindihan ko na TAMA lang na i-prioritize niya yung stable job niya..
pero hindi ko maiwasang hindi maasar sa FATE ko..
i was very disappointed with the turn of events..
i was asking myself why it had to happen to me..?
of all the possible schedules na tatamaan ng trabaho niya - bakit yung sa akin pa (which is very important for me, siyempre selfish na yung point of view ko)..?
bakit kung kailan kailangan ko nang mag-break..?
at bakit si Miss Co pa, na top priority ko..?
sobrang nahirapan akong magpa-schedule sa kanya, tapos maka-cancel lang pala...
and to think na ansaya-saya ko pa naman noon na nag-go-grocery ng mga kakailanganin ko for my date(s), last morning of November 8..
i was very excited back then..
pero napalitan yung pakiramdam na yun ng panlulumo..
na kahit na i'd still be able to repeat walk Miss C & Ab, eh parang hindi ko na magawang maging excited (before our walk) kasi alam kong may malaking kulang na..
kahit na kabilang kasi sa top choices ko yung 2 na yun, alam ko na hinding-hindi nila magagawang matupad yung pangarap ko na ma-meet si Miss Co...
siguro bumalik rin sa akin ang karma..
ang totoo kasi, i originally booked Miss Co for an overnight date, kasi nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa noon sa iba ko pang prospect na [Name of Group]..
but a night after kong mapa-OO si Miss Co, i had this idea na since ang main goal ko naman talaga is to meet more [Name of Group] na hindi ko pa nami-meet before - naisip ko tuloy to try to book some other [Name of Group] for a more memorable final walk before i proceed with my hiatus..
the fact na napa-OO ko si Miss Co for a schedule boosted my confidence, na kesyo baka nga may iba pa akong [Name of Group] na maipapares sa kanya..
i wanted to experience a threesome again (isinuko ko na nga yung kay Miss C dahil sa sobrang popular niya at halos fully booked na siya para sa November eh
)..- i wanted to see lovely ladies kissing one another passionately, touching each other, & sucking on each other's titties..
- i wanted to experience that glorious double blowjob once more..
- & i wanted to have that 'consistency' while fucking them both alternately..
kaso ang problema - i was only utilizing a fixed budget (yung budget na gagamitin ko sana para sa Most Beautiful Walk ko)..
siyempre na-guilty ako, kasi confirmed na nga yung walk namin as overnight eh (na kesyo baka may napalagpas si Miss Co na mas magandang proposal ng iba niyang client dahil sa offer ko - but then kakailanganin kong i-cut yung budget for her just to come up with a threesome)..
pero i was selfish, considering na rin that it could be my last walk..
so by November 6 evening, i consulted her about my change of plan, ang totoo sinubukan ko na rin noong umagang yun na maghanap na ng [Name of Group] na posibleng ipares ko kay Miss Co nang wala pang basbas niya..
luckily, pumayag naman si Miss Co, and i managed to book Miss Ab nga by November 7...
Miss Co is a considerate escort..
in fact, noong nalaman niya na ika-cut ko yung time ko with her, na hanggang 5 hours na lang kami (3 regular hours + 2 extension hours)..
eh nag-suggest siya na gawin ko na daw na 6 hours (2x na regular 3 hours) at gamitin ko na lang daw yung discount privilege ko being a verified [Name of Card] Holder (though hindi ko pa naman nakukuha yung card ko sa kanila)...
i have nothing against Miss Co..
hindi ako galit sa kanya..
naaasar lang talaga ako sa naging takbo ng pagkakataon..
at siyempre nanghihinayang rin ako nang sobra-sobra..
i already felt satisfied noong nakumpleto ko na yung mga kailangan kong [Name of Group] for my final(?) walk..
pero when she cancelled on me, it suddenly felt na nasira lahat ng plano ko - na parang nabalewala lang yung schedule na trinabaho ko nang ilang araw..
it made me feel na wala nang magiging espesyal sa walk ko na iyon (this is before that walk actually happened), dahil nawalan na nga ako ng main goal (ang makakilala ng [Name of Group] na bago sa paningin ko)..
walang natira kundi yung mga 'WHAT IF' natuloy kami..?
parang ibinalik at isinampal rin nun sa akin lahat nung naging rejection sa akin nung iba pang [Name of Group] na sinubukan kong i-book, at lahat nung panahon na nagamit ko for booking, kasama na yung panahong nasayang ko sa paghihintay..
& it made me feel undesirable (gaya sa totoong mundo)..
i was asking myself kung may mali ba akong nagawa sa grupo nila kung kaya't kahit anong schedule ang itanong ko sa kanila (na kahit ako na nga yung willing na mag-adjust ng panahon ko just to be able to meet some more of them) eh parating NO pa rin yung sagot nila..
andun yung pakiramdam na parang na-ban na ako sa lahat ng [Name of Group] na hindi ko pa na-meet before (sorry, [Name of Group])..
na parang ilag sila sa akin for some reason...
again, i had problem sleeping..
i was already having problems sa pagtulog ko noon pa lamang time na walang sumasagot ni isa man lamang sa kanila sa mga proposals ko, i was so stressed na parang hindi na ako makakapagpa-book this November (busy month daw kasi for them)..
tapos nakumpleto ko nga last November 7 lahat ng schedule naming 3, and i was so relieved..
but then that FATED night of November 8 had to come, when Miss Co told me that she might not make it DAW to our date..
at parang biglang gumuho yung mundo ko, at bumigat yung pakiramdam ko..
at hindi na nga ulit ako nakatulog nang ayos simula noon, i was having nightmares tungkol sa pagpapa-schedule ko sa kanila...
naghalu-halo na yung emosyon ko:
- noong una i was sad na wala akong mai-book sa kanila..
- and then names started to fill up my walk set, i became happy & relieved at parang nabalewala lahat nung nauna kong pagod sa pagpapa-schedule (considering all the NO's na natanggap ko)..
- tapos Miss Co had to cancel, nanlumo ako - kaya hindi ko na rin magawang maging masaya kahit na makikita ko pa naman sina Miss C at Ab...
i'm sorry kung ganito yung naramdaman ko noon...
as for Miss C & Ab..
kahit na na-cancel-an ako ng appointment..
hindi ko kayang mag-cancel sa kanila dahil lang sa nawalan ako ng main objective, kasi alam kong importante rin para sa kanila yung oras nila, at unfair kung madadamay sila sa disappointment ko..
kaya itinuloy ko pa rin yung walk namin...
to Miss Co,
i'm not sure kung seryoso ka ba sa sinabi mo sa akin na babawi ka soon..
hindi ka naman kasi nag-promise eh..
but if you really can, sana ikaw na mismo ang magbigay sa akin ng date & time kung kailan ka available, ako na lang ang mag-a-adjust ng panahon for you..
maghihintay na lang muna ako sa pagbabalik mo, hindi na muna ako pupunta sa lilipatan kong lugar..
parang hindi ko rin kasi kayang tumuloy sa plano kong hiatus, knowing na i was almost given the chance to be with you, pero biglang na-cancel lang ang lahat..
gusto kong mawala yung 'WHAT IF' na iniwan mo sa isip ko..
kaya kung willing ka talagang mag-reschedule at tulungan ako na matupad yung goal ko na ma-meet ka habang nasa [Name of Group] ka pa ulit, sabihan mo sana ako (in advance kasi alam mo naman na hindi ako taga-Manila)..?
pero kung hindi na ako pwedeng umasa, sana sabihan mo pa rin ako para sumuko na lang ako...
siguro pagtatawanan ako ng ibang GMs kapag nabasa nila yung tungkol dito..
kung paano ako na-upset ng dahil lang sa isang cancelled booking..
na siguro iisipin nila na ambabaw ko para malungkot ng dahil sa isang escort gayong andami pa namang iba diyan..
pero sa pananaw ko, depende yun sa pagpapahalaga ng bawat isa sa atin..
i'm always after the person na pwede kong makilala - not just the pussy..
i'm always after the memories that i'm going to spend with them..
(malas ko lang talaga dahil loveless ako)...
pero kahit na ganito yung sinapit ng booking ko this November..
i can still recommend the [Name of Group]..
the main reason is marami kasi silang services na hindi mo makikita sa iba pang service provider eh..
yun nga lang, you've been warned already about the different possibilities in dealing with them (may kanya-kanya kasi silang buhay at routine)...
PS:
i would also like to apologize to all the other [Name of Group] na naabala ko during the time na binubuo ko ang walk set ko..
to Miss Jo, Y, Al, & Mx..
pasensya na kung naging makulit at persistent ako..
ako lang talaga yung tipo ng lalaki na mas gustong naghihintay ng 'OO' o 'HINDI'..
i know that 'NO RESPONSE' is almost similar to a rejection, pero mas gusto ko lang kasi yung definite na sagot kasi ayokong napapaisip ako ng mga 'WHAT IFs' (na kesyo baka busy lang yung tao, o unattended lang yung cellphone)...
kasalanan ko dahil naging dependent ako sa [Name of Group] para sa mga personal na pangangailangan ko...
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